Lovely Love My Family!

This is a song that is by The Roots and is on the Yo Gabba Gabba soundtrack CD. I just LOVE the words to this song and the meaning behind it! I think that this song is teaching kids at such a young age to appreciate all the good things in their life and how our family is such a HUGE part in every ones life. We put this song on repeat and listen over and over!! Oh who am I kidding Yo Gabba Gabba is the highlight of my day!!

Here is the link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-fmg_OYn6IA

And here are the words:

All we need, all we need. All we need.
Spread the love around, yeah

Sometimes when I am sitting by myself
Those quiet moments when not with no one else
I’m mesmerized by all the many good things in my life
I think about the time when I was younger
And the older that I get the more that I feel wiser
With the love of friends and family
Get stronger and it carries me on through

So I say lovely lovely lovely lovely lovely
lovely lovely lovely love, love my family
So I say lovely lovely lovely lovely lovely
lovely lovely lovely love, love my family
So I say lovely lovely lovely lovely lovely
lovely lovely lovely love, love my family

Sometimes when I am waiting for the bus
The sun shines bright and I feel peace like nowhere else
I know I'm in good health and life keeps going, I keep moving, I’m alright
I go to school and educate my mind, and the way the world is spinning
makes me want to turn around and start all over, hit the reset and go back in time.

Oh baby love me
Oh spread the love around, yeah

So I say lovely lovely lovely lovely lovely
lovely lovely lovely love, love my family
So I say lovely lovely lovely lovely lovely
lovely lovely lovely love, love my family
So I say lovely lovely lovely lovely lovely
lovely lovely lovely love, love my family

I can honestly say that some of these words really hit me. I am so grateful for my family and friends that are in MY life and my kids life who have helped me so much with my life these past few months! They have been CRAZY!! I want to tell them that I love them and that they mean SO much to me and I dont know what I would do with out them. These people know who they are! Thank you, I love you SO SO much!!!

I am alive!!!!!

As many of you know I am going through a pretty rough time in my life, and it seems that I have fallen off the face of the earth! Well I am here to tell you that I am alive and well!!! Things have just been so overwhelming and some days it takes all that I have to get out of bed, But I have broke that habit and am moving on! SO I dont have anything too exciting to report/blog about but hey, easter is coming up!!! stay tuned in....

My Weight loss!

This post is really Random but I wanted to do it because I am proud of my self!!! I hadn't noticed that I was really that Fat until people started saying how skinny I was, I just brushed it off and thought oh they are just being nice cause my kid is HUGE! ha ha Well then I went to the Doctor and started seeing the numbers.... I went from 220 (Daxies Birthday 2008) to 120(yesterday). Now I know that part of that was pregnancy but still 220! Here are just some before and after shots!

July 2008


July 2009


January 2010


I have to admit that I think the last picture is super cheesy! But come on look at those hip bones ( you can actually see them!) that is something I haven't seen in a long time!

Christmas 2009

This year was an interesting one!!! Little Daxie was so grumpy all night at grandmas and we couldnt figure out why, we thought that maybe he was just hot so we undressed him, nope, that didnt work. changed his diaper, not that either. we just figured it had been a long day and that he was probably ready to go home and go to bed, we left and went home and Daxie fell asleep in the car. We got home and laid the boys down only to have daxie wake right back up wanting to play. Jon tried for a good two hours to get him to lay down but he refused. Once he finally fell asleep Jon and I also could, that is until 3 am! Daxie is up! Ready to go... No he didnt know Santa had came yet.



Here is a picture I took at 4 am of sweet little dax playing!
so anyways we were up all night entertaining this baby. Once brody got up we went upstairs to see if Santa had come and HE HAD!!!!!



Brody was so excited to get his new camera!



Daddy and Daxie



Brody got some new view master reels and was super excited!



The first present that dax got is the only one he wanted to open, he screamed and cried if we tried to take it away for another one to open, at this point we know some thing is up. So we finish opening presents and then I head downstairs to get ready to go to when my mom comes down saying that Daxies ear drum burst and that its leaking blood and puss. Well we sit there and try to decide if we should go to the ER or if we think its ok to wait to go to the dr in the morning. We gave him some ear drops and motrin and he seemed to be fine so we waited. We Then went to see Sherlock Holmes and go as a family to Aarons Grave, Wow that was really hard but it was good because most of us hadnt been back since the funeral. Daxie is good and so is the rest of the Family. We hope that you all had a Merry Christmas and Have a Happy New Year! And I cant WAIT for Hawaii!!!!!!! I know you are all SO jealous!

New post!

I know that I have been such a slacker in my postings!!! I have just been so overwhelmed with all of the events in my life, This Christmas has been so hard knowing that Aaron was suppose to be here celebrating and that we should be celebrating his engagement. But instead we are left with broken hearts and so many emotions. Jamie Posted a poem on her blog that I read almost daily because I feel it should make me feel better but it doesn't. Deep down I know that he is happy and that he is watching over us and that he knows we will be ok. I pray for him to give Jon and I guidance every day and that he will help both of us make the right choices and that he will also give his parents a sense of peace and comfort. I miss my Airbear so much and I have so many regrets that I can NEVER change or fix. I try everyday to not make those mistakes again and to learn for all of this. I hope that every one had a great Christmas and that Santa found you all! I know he sure found us! I Wish every one a good and Happy New Year!!!

Holiday Boutique

This is an updated list with all the different vendors that will be there! It will be alot of fun and I know there is going to be alot of cool things there! Come check it out! Hope to see you there!

Pfc Aaron Thomas Nemelka June 1st 1990-November 5th 2009

In the afternoon of Thursday November 5Th I received a text message from Jon saying that there has been a shooting at Fort Hood, My heart instantly sunk. So I turn on the TV and get on my computer to watch on the Internet. As I am watching and Frantically calling and trying to text Aaron I start to shake tremendously. I watch and start looking around to find where they are being taken. I called the metroplex hospital first and then the other two with them all saying he is not here. Two of the three hospitals shut down to the public and would not take anymore calls so I just called the Metroplex about every half hour until the receptionist gave me a new number to call to the family support group, little did I know what was about to come about. I then Have all my co-workers on the phone calling trying to get through. I was able to get through in about 5 mins. From that point I was Given 8 Different numbers of people to call. Once I got down to the Sargent and Luetenet I knew I could go no where else. As I sat and spoke with Aaron's Lt He had a shaky voice and told me that he couldn't release any information at this time, Little did I know that a Chaplin was on his way to the house. It was around 10:30 pm when I called the LuetentinT one more time to see if he heard that I was overcome with a feeling that Aaron was gone.Trying to brush my emotions aside I decide to leave work only to get home and have Jon call saying that he was gone. I rushed up the stairs and burst into my parents room sobbing, they instantly knew and were also sobbing, I then leave to go over to be with The whole family running just about every red light bawling my eyes out.I Called a friend from work who I knew was still working just crying he knew, I know that he was prompted by the spirit in what he then told me. With talking to him I opened my eyes to see that our Heavenly Father has a plan and that Aaron's mission here on earth was full filled and that it was time to return home. With so many emotions running through my head and questions that I needed answers to, I soon turned to anger and hatred How could one of his own do something like this? How could you just Murder someone? How could out of 52,000 people on that base Aaron be the one to go? Aaron was so excited to serve his country, He was looking forward to coming home in December to be with the ones he loves most, His family,Aaron was also planning on asking the love of his life Kristin to marry him.I guess in this life time we will never know why he had to go like this or at this timing. We can only trust in the lord and try to be at peace. All I can say is that Aaron was a good kid and that he loved his country with all his heart, He loved his family, He Loved being around his nephews and niece more than anything.This has been by far the harest thing that I have ever had to go through. Aaron was my favorite and I think that everyone knows that! I have always felt so protective over him and now he is gone.Some one posted this on his fan page on facebook and I really like it, Psalm 30:5 "Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning.Sorrow lasts through this night. Joy will come. Rest In Peace Aaron. You walk with your father in heaven now."

We will miss you Aaron. I love you Airbear.